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Posted by Gypsy on 2018/12/21 13:12:05 When I was 9 years old my parents split up. Without my Father's income in the house I was forced to go to some really shitty schools. By the time I was 12 I was in the worst school, ever. I was cornered in the bathroom in the middle of pissing by a kid from a nearby highschool (ie. he didn't even belong in my school) and he proceeded to beat my fucking brains in with some form of weapon. I say some "form of weapon" because one moment I was awake and the next moment I was in a hospital struggling to stay alive. Terms like "severe brain damage" and "multiple skull fractures" were being spoken around me. At 12 years old I was robbed of my true personality and handed PTSD and Bi-Polar Disorder to take it's place. Thanks, shitty school. All you people on Discord that find it acceptable to judge me, and label me, you have no clue how wrong you are. I don't mean "wrong" as incorrect (although you are incorrect). I mean "wrong" as in unacceptable. That encounter in the bathroom wasn't my last brush with death, either. I've been stabbed, shot, beaten on by countless blunt objects, jumped, run into with vehicles. I was the nicest kid on earth for a whopping 12 years and due to circumstances I had no control over I was forced to warrior-up OR DIE. Y'all call me crazy and all these other terms that imply I don't have a grip on reality. Boy, wouldn't that be nice. That would be fucking bliss. Unfortunately, in reality, I have to fight PTSD and BiPolar episodes like a prisoner in my own body. How lucky are you that you never get shoved down inside of yourself and have to stare, perfectly sane, out of your own eyes completely unable to stop yourself from being triggered. I never asked for this. I went to french private schools and lived in suburbia and then I was dropped into hell. I read it all discord Quakers. My stuff is all garbage I can't do this anymore. It's like me against 100's of people and I thought we were all supposed to be on the same team. Y'all win. I give up. I completely give up. Pat yourself on the back. You just made one of the most doggedly determined people on this planet give up on you. I have some work to do to make sure that the handful of people that actually did believe in me, and did participate on my site don't lose all their efforts but, I'm going to shut it all down and you can talk about my ghost. peace Shamblernaut #1 posted by Gypsy on 2018/12/21 13:39:47 spam Out of all the stuff I read tonight I want to say I have mad respect for you, bro. You had opinions about things I've done and probably shouldn't have done but, you never brought it to that level where it's magically personal for no apparent reason. Your buddies would do well to take a lesson from you. Critical opinions are one thing. Dragging people through the mud behind their back is entirely different thing. You never stooped to that low-class level and I respect the hell out of you for it. Coolstorybro. I'm sure if you were intending to quit, you'd just quit, instead of the epic novel. Let's pretend I do. The bottom line of that essay is mine. The rest is a masterpiece.
I was the nicest kid on earth for a whopping 12 years
Shit, that's longer than I've ever been nice. One of my kindergarten memories was loudly saying "I don't like any of you!!!" to the entire nursery. I was probably 6 years old at the time. Gonna save the best bits of the dramapostz from http://www.nextgenquake.com/topic/the-page-just-before-you-close-the-cover/ in case he deletes them...
I’ve acquired so many skills and knowledge the sum of what I have forgotten is greater than everything they will ever know. I can pick up and do anything I want. ANYTHING. I’m the 1000’s of skills guy I’m not generally one to give up but, we are at a point where I either give up or run through this community with a great dedication to destroying it all ~ fill a pi up with ddos attacks and shell scripts and just turn it on forever. Fuck, buy 100 of them and create a cluster of problems. Or maybe this community would ironically like to start mining Runes whether they like it or not. What part of idea->implement (when it comes to me) that this community does not understand is beyond me. Nothing is outside my grasp or capabilities. I could have you spending your life savings just to armor up your server. Quake could be the most expensive thing you’ve ever endeavored in. These outdated homemade sites are paper-thin. The only reason they haven’t been wiped off the net is because they haven’t made the right enemies. But they want to swear up and down that I am one. That’s an incredibly stupid thing to swear. You might as well stick a shotgun in your mouth to see what bullets taste like. Gotta love those big man internet warrior threats. Also... Ironically, I’m annoyed about what I read but I’m not really mad at anybody. Preceeded by: I have people that align boxes in a virtual space and skin it with someone else’s textures talking shit about 10’s of thousands of lines of code written completely from scratch in numerous languages. These mother fuckers don’t deserve to even utter my name. …Just a bunch of groupthink faggots with no clue. Take OneTruePurple for instance, I don’t know a fucking thing about this guy. I have never said a single thing about him EVER (until this thread). He is totally comfortable talking shit about me and making accusations but this dude does not even exist to me for the most part. I am mildly aware of his existence. This could be said about a number of these people. Muk (mukor) ~ who the fuck is that? I almost feel sorry for these people ~ like they were born with down-syndrome and I should be more understanding of their condition. Maybe that’s the whole deal. I’m getting ticked off by people that do not have the capacity to grasp how deficient they are in common sense. Although, I think even someone with down-syndrome could grasp a concept like “I don’t have to use it so, why waste any time hating it.” Does that mean that these people are basically operating on a brain stem level of intelligence? Like they can’t even implement a down-syndrome level…? It’s not important to me to reply to dumptrucks post with “Hey dumbfuck, what do you think NGQ is?” or go in chatrooms and explain to everyone behind his back how oblivious he is. Actually, it’s beyond not important to me. It is completely against my nature to be a fucking coward. Dumptruck will “Gypsy, that’s awesome! Gypsy you are the man! Gypsy [insert two-faced bullshit]” and then dog me behind my back like a complete fucking coward. Yup. Not mad at all. Nope. I’m the 1000’s of skills guy
I guess it's a shame those skills don't include the all-important "Ability to not act like a little toddler having a paddy". Bless his cotton socks. :) Please copy and paste what I posted about you. And make sure and add the dates. I don't recall posting anything negative about you once we got to know each other. But then again I am pretty oblivious. Set the record straight for me. Or I dunno direct message me so we can talk like adults.
I am writing this as a longtime member of func. That has gone long enough and in the end it is too much for me. For obvious reasons, I choose to be anonymous.
Dear John Fitzgibbons, will you seriously continue to support the abuse of people on this site? Above you have Shambler copying the collapse of a poor soul on the internet "in case he deletes them". Shambler is a moderator for func_msgboard, so you do not just let them publish vile garbage like above, you pretty much reward them with power over this community. The person said they have to fight PTSD and BiPolar episodes. And here we have Shambler gleefully and with the support of other members make fun of it. This is neither the first time nor even something to be surprised about. The Quake community could be stronger than it has been for a long time, but instead you let a a couple of psychos drive out both oldtimers and newbieswith their continued shit. Please consider not only the damages these actions cause to the community but, especially in this case, the effects on a person mentally struggling. Quite a few people here are certainly familiar with mental health problems. "Normal" people rarely care about a 20 year old video game. Quite a few people here are certainly familiar with mental health problems. "Normal" people rarely care about a 20 year old video game.
I like how you post this big thing complaining about abuse and then just call us all mentals at the end anyway. Anyway whatever, anonyclown, I'm off to follow this goose for a bit Are newbies really scared off by how mean func is?
I'll just go on the record and say the reason I've been neglecting mapping has more to do with being a lazy stoner than my having problems with the community. Did Bloughsburg really leave? If so that's a shame. This was not meant as an insult or abuse, but as a true statement. Friends talk privately over the years. Several people know my own struggles and I know them. Your reactions show that you have no regard for mental problems and I'm glad I stayed anonymous
Glad that you're the authority on what everyone else knows about mental health issues. You might have noticed that I have not posted any quotes about Gypsy's mental health issues, only the more outrageous non-mental-health-related statements about himself, his threats, and his insults to other people, that he choose to write (and I'm assuming it took him long enough that he had plenty of time to even temporarily transcend his mental health issues and reconsider his words) and choose to make publicly available.
Somehow feel this BEEF thread is a sort of "rite of passage"! You get into with some here, get your ass kicked, or mutually hold your ground and then... come out the other side in good standing, relatively speaking, hehe. Sure, you may be a bit bloody but HEY.. it's QUAKE so... par for the course.
Or maybe I'm just reading to much into it :-P That #429 post was posted as a thread on here and I moved it wholesale - I only put that in quote text to highlight it was someone else's different thread.
I was referring to my cherrypick quoting later on in the second large post #433. liked G's voice in his vids, as well as shamblernaught's voice, and on the other hand the other shambler voice is a pretty meh voice
the ssacki-repus drama? ah, the other shambler's befriended ssacki, so won't expect that drama here
The soul of a single virtuous man hath the worth of ten evil men, for canst not the virtuous man both slay the wicked and preserve his own?
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